It wasn’t easy. The process to love myself was really hard and challenging. I jumped into professional life at a very young age. I had to meet a lot of different kinds of people due to my job. Those days, I mostly worked or acted the way people wanted to see me. I was a very calculated decision maker. But, gradually, things changed. You can say that changes approached me through many bad and good experiences.
My 1st Step of Loving Myself
My professional and personal, both fronts, were very chaotic. Chaotic in my eyes, actually, as I was always looking for people’s appreciation. Everything was so robotic, and I was always stressed out. I wanted to do something, but I was actually doing something else. I wanted to come out of that situation, but I wasn’t able to do that just because of people’s opinion. But, one day I set down and thought about my job and the life. And Finally, I choose a happy life over money. Yes, we all need money, but running behind it is horrible. Instead of running behind it, let the money run behind you. I think this was my 1st step to loving myself.
Overcoming A Pathetic Relationship
As I was shorting out my professional life, my personal life was in a pathetic situation. Very few of my friends knew about this, though, and I never talked about it to all. Even I thought a lot before writing it down here for you guys. But, then I thought, it may help you to be confident and happy in life. Well, so I was in a relationship with a wrong person for more than 4 years. I thought, everything was going right, but all were actually wrong. That ended with a huge betray as the person was 100 % fake. Though I wasn’t happy at all in that relationship, I used to convince myself that I was happy and moreover, I was never vocal about it to that person. But, end of that 4th year, I started putting my priorities 1st and started saying “no” to the things I don’t like. Interestingly, My break-up wasn’t tough, but yes, the relationship was tough. The break-up was easy, as, by then, I was already in love with myself.
Now, I know what is the meaning of loving myself. Now I know, loving myself is not selfish. Now, I also know that if I can’t love myself, I can’t love others either.
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